Monday, September 1, 2014

Vandalism ~ A new thought

When you read this word, what image came into your mind?
Did you think of someone spray painting a wall or throwing a rock threw a window?
The real definition of vandalism is this:
willful destruction with malicious intent, to do harm or to destroy,
or willful or ignorant destruction of artistic or literary treasures.
I remember a few years ago our pastor was sharing on this topic.
It stirred me to think deeper. (imagine that)
The word vandalism brings up many negative thoughts and as I was thinking about those images it is true to say, we would never take a spray can and ruin some one else's property.
We would say it is not good or considerate and even breaks a law.
Now in saying that I challenge us to think about this word in a different way.
When we talk bad about someone or spread a rumor that might not be true against them.
When we choose to believe the untruths without knowing full facts.
We are committing vandalism of the heart towards one another.
Fragmenting and hurting the heart and treasure of another.
Our Pastor said it is like homicide of the heart creating damage and death to a relationship.
When we place judgement on each other we injure the spirit of the person and the content of their story.
The willful destruction is when we choose to spread the rumor or believe the untruth.
The malicious intent is when we choose to say unkind words against another and then begin to believe them.
This intention does harm to us and does harm to the one we are speaking about.
It is unkind and it is non relational and leads to death of a relationship.
In this journey we call life.
We must take responsibility and choose to be kind.
"And be kind to one another, tender-hearted, forgiving each other, just as God in Christ also has forgiven you." Ephesians 4:2
God has given each of us the ability to choose wisely and to have and use discernment when making that choice.
We must take action to be cautious and careful to not harm the heart of another.
When we grasp the pure holiness of another we will refrain from intention to hurt.
When we learn the value of others as God intended them to be valued.
There will be no room for vandalism and intentional pain.
The challenge for us to examine our motives and the intention of our hearts.
Are we choosing words that hurt or heal?
"Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in thy sight, Oh Lord, my rock and my redeemer." Psalm 19:14
(this is a revised reprint of a writing I did in 2010)
Let us use wise judgement and be encouraging towards each other.

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Winding down

Soon the summer will be winding down and fall will come bringing the cool winds and drying leaves.
I love the fall.
It is refreshing to me.
Reminding me that in order for something to be appreciated it has to go through a process.
The hot summer days brings flowers and life and fruit and produce and every other good thing.
Fall brings rain.
Leaves turn to oranges and hues of browns and greens.
In Oregon sometimes the rain stays for a long time and then it becomes time for boots and rain coats.
We know that is part of life here in the Pacific Northwest.
I am welcoming fall.
I am looking forward to the routine of school and then Thanksgiving.
Giving thanks for our life as we know it.
I am not by nature a summer person had to learn how to wear cropped pants and sleeveless tops.
My favorite is a sweater with warm socks and nice boots.
Love the feel of flannel pants or even warm sweat pants on a relaxing stay at home day.
We got married in the fall because the colors are so beautiful and
it is a special time to reflect.
Can't wait for the rustling of dry leaves under my feet when I walk.
My friend Shelly took this picture: Isn't it wonderful?
I welcome Fall to come and bring us new memories and experiences.
How do you experience the change of seasons? do you welcome them?

Monday, August 18, 2014

Just a few words

The last post I did was just for a bit of fun.
It seems like the world is crazy these days.
So much around us is changing and seems to be on a downward scale.
We do know for sure that God is in control of all and even though
we do not understand or like many of the changes or behaviors of some people.
He is IS in control and He does know the direction
of where it is all going.
What matters most to me is safety for those I love and care for.
Peace in the areas we all live.
Hope in the midst of suffering.
Freedom where it is risky to be free.
Trust in Our Almighty God's wisdom and love for us.
He is a God who designed and made us in his own image.
I pray you all find yourselves safe and away from harm.
We are living in times that are shaking and changing
let us go into the house of Lord and pray.

Sunday, August 17, 2014

My furry family just for fun

They have always loved each other
The bed is getting very small for them.


Emma Rose 

Emma Rose a grand old Australian cattle dog
Queensland Heeler 
Our time is coming to an end very soon with Miss Emma Rose.
She is showing signs of her aging and in fact I figured out she will be 16 in October.
Her hips are beginning to give out on her and her legs are very fragile, she has a hard time walking especially on the wood floor in our family room.
She has very few teeth. I moisten her food now, sometimes even mush it down to make it easier to eat.
She is on pain medication two times a day now, I put them on bread with butter she loves it.
She is still eating and drinking and doing her outside duties.
I am in prayer as to when I should take her in and put her down.
My heart has been in grief for a few months now I just can't say good bye to her.
Our kitties have been a great deal of fun for us. They are almost a year old now and moving out of the bad behavior and running wild stages tearing up anything in their path.
They both love their old dog and most of the time disturb her with all their kitty loves.
She looks at me with a look that says "really mom?" let me out please I do need some old lady quiet time.

Friday, August 8, 2014

Spiritual misfit guest post.

I am honored to be a guest writer today, on Michelle DeRusha's website.
Please read the rest of the story over there.

I sent her the story and it was a bit too long so she edited it and added beautiful pictures.
I love the way it turned out.
A Simple Prayer from a spiritual misfit BelovedMisfitpin2

God hears our prayers even when we don't know what to say.
I pray you can read her book and support this new friend of mine.

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

A story of faith and belief

On Friday I have a writing that will be published on
Michelle DeRusha's blog.
It is the story of when I was a spiritual misfit.
How I began to believe in a God bigger than anything else.
How I came to realize that He knows and He cares,
and He will not ever leave us.
How my life was changed in a forever way.
It is a story that is layered with many words not written and many experiences not shared.

Michelle's book is a wonderful reminder of when a heart is seeking
God will answer.
It is a journey of questions and challenges.
It is both serious and funny. I laughed as I read the humor
as she shared the many trials and struggles of being a mom.
You will not be disappointed in this book I recommend it
I have enjoyed her writing, her friendship and her blog for a few years now and next year I will finally be able to meet her.
On Friday she will be featuring my story.
A story of faith and belief and how a 'small prayer' was answered.
Hope you can join me in this journey as she shares 'my story'.

Thursday, July 31, 2014

Questions for a blog hop: Why do I write.

I was asked to participate in a blog hop by a blogger friend.
She wrote her 'questions' out and then introduced my blog.
Part of the blog hop included a series of questions for me to answer about my own blog.
So I will attempt to answer in the best way possible.
1. What am I writing or working on?
For the last few months I have been centering into a more firm writing theme, beginning with a basket full of words as as starting point. 
Each word represented itself etched on a clay heart. 
I laid them out and began to form a series of words from the beginning point to an ending point, (which hasn't happened yet) in reference to the recovery process. 
I began with one word, discovered it's full meaning and then wrote about it in full detail.
My goal was to have them follow a logical sequence that would make sense to the reader and anyone following the process with me.
It has been a good and wonderful way to write.
Focused and similar so that my blog is not jumping around with a variety of topics. 
My other theme has been sharing my grief and loss. 
I write what is currently going on in my life but with discernment as to privacy and names. I do believe this is the way right now
God wants my blog to be moving.
2. How does my work differ from others of it's genre?
I focus on feelings, matters of the heart. Growth towards God. Encouragement and hope.
3. Why do I write what I write?
When the blog began it was birthed out of a lot of prayer, soul searching and willingness to write from my heart with little editing or over thinking.
When I first retired from full time work God gave me the time, the tools, and the encouragement from my husband to begin a writing process. 
One day he said to me, "I read a lot of engineering blogs and I think you can the very same thing in your own writing style." 
After he said that I had no clue what a blog was or what people did with them.
So the challenge gave me a reason to dig further and read others writings and then pray about my own 'way of sharing.' 
Within a few weeks God gave me the desire to write from my heart in an open and real authentic way and then proceeded to lead me into the 'name' of the blog.
Something to think about was birthed out of the desire for someone to read what is written then step back and say, "I have never thought of it that way." 
All my life writing has been a healing process for me. 
As a child I would often have a pen and paper near me to write or to draw with and I knew what was written if secured in a safe 'place' was only for my heart and my emotions.
It was a place of 'safety'. 
I could write and not worry about the issues or concerns surrounding my words. 
It was my own journey of healing. 
Now as I have become more mature in the process of writing and blogging I moved from a private 'blog setting' to one open to the public. 
That took great courage for me. 
I am by nature very private but as my husband said to me one day: 
"If you wrote a book, would you always know who read it or purchased it?" 
my answer was no. 
So I released my control and allowed God to take the blog where he wanted it to go. 
Soon after that time, I began to do guest posts and joined others at writers conferences and discussions.
I write because the story God has given me, is not for my purpose but for the purpose of helping others.
We all have a story and it is our responsibility to share it.
4. How does my writing process work?
Well I have a den/office room which is where the majority of all my work is done. 
My computer sits on an large antique desk and there are piles of papers nearby to help in the note taking. 
I begin by processing the thought or theme, or I follow a word prompt, then it takes generally about 5-8 hours to finally publish the writing as a finished piece.
I read it out loud and sense how it feels or sounds, then I pause and come back to it. Giving me space and window of opportunity to tweak a word or two and even whole paragraphs will be removed or rewritten. 
Each blog takes hours unless it is a quick five minute word prompt.
Sometimes if I am reading a book I will take notes, not to copy from someone but to stir ideas in my own process and presentation. 
Whenever the blog is written it is bathed in prayer, and checked many times before the final 'publish' button is pushed.
In 2010 this blog began. Each year since then has been put into a book form so a legacy of words can be passed down from my children to my grand children.
It is a perfect preservation of who I am as a person and what I believe in as a believer, the words reflect my personality and my faith and what is most important to me. 
If one person can be changed, challenged, moved and encouraged, by this legacy of writing then I believe every hour spent in this writing chair was worth it.