Sunday, June 8, 2014

I am tired

My mother is dying.
It is a strange thing to think that soon I will be like many others in this 'stage' of life.
As my husband calls it, an orphan.
No parent.
Nothing.
Mothers day and Father's day have been empty for me for a long time because of certain circumstances.
But now it will truly be an empty day.
No hallmark memories to fill the hallow space of heart.
Death is such a strange thing.
She is in a coma and not really responding.
It is a matter of time.
Perhaps a few days or even a few hours.
Eventually minutes when the breathing stops.
The heart gets a message to stop the beating.
Then the shell of the one who once lived will lay empty.
The angels come and escort the 'one home' to a heavenly home.
If they are a believer.
Those left behind will pick up the reminders of
when times were different.
When both of them were alive.
She has been leaving for quite some time.
Dementia and parkinson's are the reason.
Dad passed away in September of last year.
Loss has been the story lately for my husband and I.
Starting with my husbands mom four years ago.
Then his dad, last March.
My dad, then a good friend within a week from each other.
My old special cat, the same week.
Two weeks ago another very special family friend and last week another family friend.
I am tired of saying good bye.


7 comments:

elizabeth said...

I'm so sorry for all you are going through, Sharon.

June Caedmon said...

I'm sorry for your losses, Sharon. Please remember you are not alone. The shortest verse in the bible, "Jesus wept." He wasn't weeping for the man He was getting ready to resurrect, I believe He was weeping for the family Lazarus left behind.
And He weeps for you. He won't leave you in your grief anymore than He left Mary and Martha in theirs. Have a blessed week.

Linda said...

A heart laid bare is ready for Jesus to pick up. Je will take the pieces and make them His.

Linda said...

A heart laid bare is ready for Jesus to take the pieces and make me His.

Sheila said...

Sharon, I am so sorry that you are hurting. Thank you for sharing. I'm praying.

Adrienne said...

Praying much for you, my friend. And holding you close to my heart as you walk through another loss.
~Adrienne~

Deborah said...

Again, I am so very sorry. I know this journey well. My father passed six weeks before my husband, and my mother 7 months before him. No words of wisdom here...it's a raw, painful journey...actually, one word of wisdom; Faith. God is near.
Love,
Deb